There is this one sentence that I read (from a manga, of all things) that stuck in my head for quite some time, and now, I finally understand what it means. The sentence, or more like the scene, goes, "She instinctively felt the attention she was getting from the perm-girl without actually being conscious of it herself."
You know how sometimes you feel yourself attracted to a person, even though you've known them for some time and never had an inkling of getting together or closer to them? Well, in this manga 'Antique Bakery', the character was commenting on how this girl was attracted to a particular 'outcast' girl in school. But inactuality, it was the outcast who had her eye on the girl all this time, making the girl _subliminally focused_ on the outcast. Intuition and instinct was what made the girl increasingly aware of the outcast's existence, even though they've passed by the hall thousands of times and she never thought twice about the outcast.
Well, now, I finally managed to put a finger to that particular feeling that's been bugging me these past months. For some unknown reason to me, I became attracted to and started noticing more of this person, even though I've talked to and hung out with this person many, many, many times. It never cross my mind on having whatever relationship with this one; whether this person was there or not, it didn't use to matter to me.
But now it does.
And the reason behind this attraction? This person related some stuff to me, which answered alot of questions that were bothering me all this while, and also shed some light on this sudden, out-of-the-blue attraction. All this time, this person was focusing on me, making me instinctively turn to the given attention. Well, at least now I know what's with all the gazes and stares, and weird comments.
Oh, what if it was me giving this person attention which makes this one focused on me, and I'm being all 'perasan' thinking this person likes me when it's the other way around? I have no bloody clue and you have to figure it out yourself, ahahahha!! :P
